As soon as I found out that I was going, I didn’t feel like I was worthy to go.
What had I done to deserve to go?
The truth is that I was consecrating myself. I wanted to give what God had revealed to me.
When I arrived at the temple, its exterior beauty reminded me of the entrance to heaven. The stones used to build the Temple came from Israel, and were offered as a sacrifice by all the members of the Universal Church. These stones seem to speak.
As I walked in and participate in the meetings, it was inevitable not to cry. Especially since everything was done with such discipline, on the outside as well as inside. I arrived 30 to 40 minutes before the meeting began, and remained in silence. No one said a word. Light music played in the background, while images and verses from the Bible did all the talking.
God was constantly speaking. Not only through what was written, but He was showing me who I needed to be. As I remember, my eyes fill with tears, because I saw and see His greatness and mercy with me. I felt so small and so insignificant, not because God made me feel that way, but because I really am. So imperfect. And everything that came from Him was so profound… He explained everything I had meditated on during the 40 days. It seemed like I was getting to know Him on an entirely different level. His words were alive and revealing a brand new reality.
It seemed like He was turning a page in my life. The independent phase in my life was coming to an end and I became absolutely dependent on Him.
This caused me great fear, awe and reverence with everything, not just with my immediate surroundings but also in my day to day as well. It was impossible to leave the same way I went in.
Even though I’m no longer there, my spirit is still living what I received there. In other words, I’m thirstier than I’ve ever been in my entire life. I received Living Water, Water that cleanses and makes everything new. It’s not that I have changed as a person, but the way I see things and the way I now understand I should act has changed.
This is very profound.
I now understand how much I have to sacrifice and offer an honest life to God.
Before I would say, “Here is my life”, but while I was in the Temple, the Holy Spirit showed me that I am responsible for turning away from any evil ways (desires, ideas and feelings) to be what He wants me to be.
In other words, when I tell Him: “Here is my life”, I’m giving Him everything that I chose to be, which includes my time, will, choices, thoughts and ideas. And how many times have I known what I have to do to glorify His name, yet just kept waiting for Him to change me???? And He revealed to me: “My daughter, to surrender your life is to do what I have shown you to do.”
Even if this is not installed in you yet, when you use your faith, you do what is righteous to be justified before God. Not for anyone else.
The truth is, this is easily said, but it’s not so easy when you’re in a different situation.
God made me see that it’s not about what I do.
God gave me some notable topics:
The Glory of God: Give Him all the glory. Not for what I do or achieve but because I know Him and know that He is mercy, justice and righteousness.
Thus says the Lord: Let not the wise man glory in his wisdom, let not the mighty man glory in his might, nor let the rich man glory in his riches; but let him who glories glory in this, that he understands and knows Me, that I am the Lord, exercising loving kindness, judgment and righteousness in the earth. For in these I delight,” says the Lord. Jeremiah 9.23-24
Truly, everything that is written has a foundation. When I sacrifice, it’s not because I’m strong, but because He asked me. So why would I boast about what I did for God, if He asked me to do it?
If I manifested strength in demonstrating trust and surrender, it’s not because this was already in me, but because I used faith and obedience in the Word of God.
Having an encounter with God pleases Him. This is, knowing what He wants from me. People get to know us by being sensitive enough to observe us closely. This pleases God!
And once you know Him, you will know His mercy, as well as His judgment (laws, teachings) and justice (you reap what you sow).
He spoke about being the Temple.
He spoke about being Noble.
And many other things.
It was so profound that my spirit continues to speak with Him all the time. I’ve been living in spirit of prayer because I recognize the need to be One with Him.
I’m not living in the spirit just to obey Him, but because in the Temple and during the 40 days, I understood there’s a great need for me to do so.
The 40 days helped me a lot, I truly saw the Lord Jesus as He is. It was as though I was getting to know Him personally for the first time, because I understood how being One with Him is necessary.
I have remained in the faith of giving Him what He deserves to receive from me. I know and am aware that it is not through information that I’m going to acquire this, but by putting my faith in action to annihilate everything that has been impeding me from glorifying Him.
And I am willing to fight to offer to God. And I am not going to do this through my strength, but with Him. By constantly being One with Him.
Thank you Lord Jesus, for Your Work in our lives! Only the Lord is worthy of all honor and glory.