My name is Hector Luan and I’m 25 years old. I was raised in a troubled home; my parents were addicted to alcohol and cigarettes. When I was 7 years old, someone from the Universal Church evangelized my mother. She began attending meetings and soon after, we also went. One year later, my 19-year-old sister committed suicide. Four months after, my mother died of diabetes, according to the diagnosis.
My father hit us every day, had several lovers and spent several days away from home; our family was completely destroyed. After my sister’s death, a voice constantly told me to make use of her belongings (clothes, accessories, makeup etc.). One month later, my father brought one of his girlfriends to live with us. There were many parties and her relatives often came over our house. Early one morning, one of her brothers tried to abuse me. One of our neighbors also tried several times until I was about 10 years old.
At the age of 14, I moved in with my godparents and began acting like a female. They accepted me the way that I wanted to be. I became Sabrina and demanded that everyone acknowledged it. My father did not accept me and wanted to hit me in the middle of the street. Still in Para-Brazil, I started selling my body, which took on the shape of a woman’s body.
I came to São Paulo at the age of 17 with the intention to make money by selling my body. A total deception. I did make a lot of money from the age of 17 to 20, but there was a void inside that could not be filled by all the alcohol, men, women or money I ever made. When evening came, I locked myself in my apartment, drinking and using drugs, crying, all alone, without friends or relatives or any kind of affection. The following day, I woke up with no money and still feeling empty. This went on day after day. Many times, when I didn’t have enough money to get hard liquor, I would drink pure alcohol.
In the city of Campinas – Sao Paulo, I was introduced to crack, that’s when I hit rock bottom, I lost my “beauty” (which I used to make money) and my health. I got down to about 120lbs and no longer made as much money as I did before. I tried to commit suicide several times. During a rave, I drank too much and was hospitalized in an alcohol-induced coma. I tried to kill myself by jumping off an overpass, but two homeless people took me down by force, thinking I was a woman, and prevented me from killing myself. Afterwards, we smoked crack together. I lived under a bridge, and that is where I found a boyfriend, who was also homeless.
One night, after getting really high, I saw a shadow that made me feel very uneasy. I had not slept or eaten for 15 days. That night, I almost had an accident on the 3rd floor of an abandoned building. At that moment, I threw the drugs away and looked up at the sky. It was a starry night, which reminded me of God and I prayed, “If You change my life, I’ll put all this behind me and seek a better life.”
A week later, a man appeared at that building. I was drunk and high. I was there with my ex-boyfriend and one of his friends. The man looked at me and said that I was “the only one that was sincere.” He asked me if I wanted to change my life and I said, “I don’t know how, but I want to, and if I had a chance I would grab on to it with tooth and nails.”
On Saturday, he brought us to Diadema, in Sao Paulo. I saw the Universal Church located in the September 7th neighborhood, and said, “I’m not going in there!” On Sunday, at 3pm, I was there, sitting in the first row, dressed as Sabrina. I went back on Monday and Tuesday, and was delivered from all evil. Everyone in Church was alarmed to see me on Wednesday, when I returned as Hector. Now they knew that the Sabrina, who had arrived on Sunday, was actually Hector. From that day forth, I never went back to that sinful life. I quit using drugs, was delivered from homosexuality, prostitution, depression, the desire to die and the void I felt was filled by the Holy Spirit, that completely transformed me and made me a new man, 100 % happy.
Hector Luan